Tag: regret

• Mad Girl’s Goodbye

  I locked myself in with a small blue key
  The room smelled of roses and melancholy
  (Once I was in, they wouldn’t set me free)
   
  I’m just waiting here until they miss me
  The curtains were lifeless and hung like death
  I locked myself in with a small blue key
   
  It’s all a mistake, just wait here and see
  Orange fires burned bright just over the hearth
  (Once I was in, they wouldn’t set me free)
   
  They stood from outside and watched by a tree
  My feet felt cold on the wet cement floor
  I locked myself in with a small blue key
   
  Silently asking, was it them or me?
  I banged and I banged on a tall wood door
  (Once I was in, they wouldn’t set me free)
   
  It’s true that I asked for this and much more
  You’ll see when I’m out, I’ll settle the score
  I locked myself in with a small blue key
  (Once I was in, they wouldn’t set me free)

• Chocolate Mousse Pie

  I didn’t say it then
  A mother I don’t know
  A life to live and grow
  Before the evening when

  I sat down in your chair
  For coffee and dessert
  Not knowing all the hurt
  My future soul would bear

  But I’ll live in that lie
  Be confidently coy
  To blissfully enjoy
  Your chocolate mousse pie

  Though so much time has passed
  And you still cross my mind
  A moment on rewind
  When I got up so fast

  With nowhere else to be
  And didn’t take the time
  A moment in its prime
  A look from you to me

  To thank you for the pie
  You didn’t have to make
  Whip, stir, cream and then bake
  Since you knew it was my

  Favorite thing to eat
  And while it didn’t last
  A love grown cold too fast
  I thank you for the treat

• Drowning

  Let it go, he told her, water under the bridge
  Let’s forget that we crossed it
  That memory, just toss it!
  Drowning false idols is no sacrilege

  Let it go, he told her, just accept the way it is
  The fire that burned cleansed us all
  Pride always goeth before the fall
  But laurels don’t rest on who lives or forgives

  These contradictions just serve to perplex me
  As I play out this game of circular chess
  Moves to explain this animosity
  A Queen for my fratricidal duress

  Who rocked you and held you and worshiped your essence
  And now you can’t deign to suffer my presence
  Time is the salve for all kinds of wounds

  So I don’t need cauldrons, or witches or brooms
  I’ll take this moment to whisper a word
  And let this silent grievance be heard

  Searching like Hera into the night
  While Zeus lies quiescent under my light
  I can’t know it all and I can’t know it now
  But I’ll make myself this solemn vow

  I’ll drown in this water
  Go down with this bridge
  And I know that this is just how it is
  But that doesn’t change this grave injustice

  To drown is to stand for something more real
  For something that matters
  Not all wounds will heal
  But I’ll go down with this bridge with just one regret
  That life can’t be cleansed from just getting wet